Life Update

I have now applied for 17 full time jobs without a single interview. I can't even find a part time job. I applied at Bath and Body works, had the interview, and was never offered a position. I also applied at Barns and Noble, had an interview, and then 3 days later got a card in mail basically telling me I was over qualified to work there. I guess being over qualified is better than being not qualified enough, but all I wanted was to make some money.... its a part time job selling books for crying out loud I would not have applied if I was not serious about working there. I applied at the Limited, was offered to come in to interview, missed that call, called back, and never got a returned call. I don't know what to do, I need a job. I don't want to live in my mom's house past the first of the year.

I talked before about someone I liked, nothing will happen with that either. I don't understand why all of my friends have no trouble at all. Its not like I am not putting myself out there, I am. I have a friend that broke up with her boyfriend and wanted to find herself a certain kind of person. So, we go out and she is almost immediately approached by exactly what she was looking for times 10! I don't know how she does it, its like she has ESPN or something.....JK =) But there is something she is doing that I am not, oh wait she just sits at a bar. I am sick to death of being the single one. I feel like I am losing friends because I am single and others have no idea how to balance relationships. I totally understand that when you get involved with someone that others take a back seat. It seems that with me I take a back seat on a 30 car train. That may sound stupid but I think you understand what I mean. I have felt so much rejection I want to feel loved and wanted for once in my life. Is that really so much to ask for?? I'm sorry if I offend anyone but I am sick of bullshit statements like just be patient it will happen when it happens. Fuck patience, I have patience for a lot of things but right now this is not one of them. Just tell me the hard truth without the cushion. I used to say I want someone blah blah blah but I don't think I really wanted that at that time. Now, I want someone in my life more than ever before it is almost overwhelming at times. I probably have more problems than someone would want to deal with but a little attention would be nice. I am sick of going out and just being the girl of interest's friend where it would not make a difference if I were there or not. I may sound crazy..... just venting.