Thoughts...

I have been thinking....why is it that everyone around me gets the things I want? I never get anything I want, even if I work for it. I never have enough money to be comfortable, I never get attention when I am out, I never get asked out (and never have been), I never look the way I want to look even on my so called good days, I could go on but I don't want to bore. I just don't get it. I am told it is the way I carry myself. I don't agree, well sometimes but that's after I see my friends get drink after drink from random people and they leave to go to the restroom or talk to a friend and the person that got them drinks asks me if they are single or interested in them. I just want to say fuck off and how rude! Actually I should tell them my friend has genital warts or something, but that's kind wrong. I am just sick and tired of being invisible or a go to girl. I am 23 and I cant get a single or a taken male to look in my direction for the life of me. I think that if I walked around naked I still wouldn't get attention. I give up. Everyone always says we will find you someone or we should go out and find guys. I look at those as empty promises, no one ever comes through. If they try they end up with the attention not me I just fade away into the background.